I am, for the first time in a long time, a bit overwhelmed with everything that is coming up within the next 2 weeks. My brain and emotions are in overdrive. So many things to remember to do. So many things I don't want to do.
2 weddings. 1 funeral. lots of family coming in. playing and practicing piano for a wedding and a funeral. writing out something to say. 5 hour drive. packing for 2 months. living out of a suitcase for 1 week. Starting a new rotation in a hospital i'm not familiar with. A psych shelf exam which I heard was extremely difficult.
I don't want my grade on my psych shelf exam to suffer but it might. I don't want to fail but I have virtually no time to study between now and the exam.
I almost wish I wasn't going home because I don't want to face family members. Is that bad of me? It's a lot easier to compartmentalize emotions when you don't see family...
I don't deal well with stress and being overwhelmed. So many people I know deal with it so much better...what is coming up for me is like a piece of cake to them. They've dealt with much more and much worse. If only.....
Lord help me. God help me.
It's okay to know your limits and let some things go :) Sometimes I'm not sure if it's so much that people are better with stress, or that they just know their limits. Either way, in anyone's book, you have a lot on your plate and you will have to allow yourself some grace to get through it all. I'm proud of you for doing your best to be a good student, daughter, friend, grandchild, and more.
ReplyDeleteHang in there Jess! I agree with Sheila, you are human and have limits and it's OK to only be able to handle so much. I wouldn't try and compare yourself w/ the way others deal with stress and loss. We all mourn in different ways. We all cope with what life throws our way in different ways. Just remember that we can all lean on the Lord during this time and He knows how best to uniquely comfort and strengthen us.
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you during this time. I wish I was close so I could be more of a support. But if there is anything I can do besides prayer, please please let me know!
p.s. close = proximity in physical units.
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