Dreams

I had a very bad dream last night. I woke up in a sweat (which rarely happens to me...probably the first time ever actually.)

There are so many things in life I wish I could go back and do over.

And I am broken...by all the mistakes I've made in this life already. Big mistakes in big things. And by big things, I mean, in the stuff that counts which is in relationships with people. And I'm only 23. And it does make me even more thankful and grateful that my God saved me early (I've been a Christian since I was 6 or 8...somewhere around there). He caught me and spared me from the lifestyle that I can see myself having (if even being a Christian, I do the things that I've done). Spared me from a lifestyle of self-destruction, pride, and destructive relationships. He saved me when I was young by putting me in a loving home. Saved me when I was in middle school and high school by miraculously keeping me in check. Greatly saved me in college. And continues to save me in med school. It is continuous and not a day goes by that I do not need saving by my Savior.

what more could I want? What more can I ask for? It is grace. And this journal is aptly titled. I think of this all the time...only grace
I love grace. This New Testament word that God created. This new concept that He created to save the world.
I need grace.
I love grace.
By grace, I am saved....

And one of my favorite U2 songs is called "Grace". You should give it a listen sometime...